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She was so tired. River was just tired. She had been up most of last night. Her sister, her older sister (by two minutes honestly.) Still, Zui stumbled in drunk and sobbing. It scared her. She knew Zui never cried. Her sister refused to and now that she was sobbing. She had no idea what to do. Usually, the roles have been switched and it was River sobbing her eyes out and Zui comforting her. It scared the shit out of River. Her sister was also drunk as fuck and stumbling. Phineas and Amanda came in and Zui just started crying as she sat (more like) fell onto the couch. River shooed Hayden, Amanda and their guitarist away as River and Phin sat on either side of their sobbing sister. She had curled herself into a ball with her head on River's lap. River stroked her sister's hair till the crying had well...stopped a little and Zui was able to get out words. What she had horrified River and her own brother. River was terrified, she never thought it happened. Her sister was in pain...when they lived in Vegas. She had always assumed that James treated her well because they were best friends. The two had sleep overs. She never knew that he was hurting her badly. Testing out new knives and just hurting her. She never knew any of it. She always thought her sister was happy with James. The times she came home crying, she just thought her and James watched another one of those sappy movies. Holy shit, it never happened like that. She was really hurt. Zui already convinced them that the scars came from the car crash. But, it wasn't that. That he had cut her enough for him to stitch her off. That he had stabbed her one last time before she ordered a opposing gang to crash the car with her in it and then if she wasn't dead by that then to kill her. Luckily the cops came just in time to find her bleeding on the side. She knew that night Zui almost died from trama, from the accident. She didn't know that she was purposely trying to do it. She had no clue.

River opened her eyes and rubbed her forehead with her hand and looked to the bunk next to her. Amanda was sleeping in it and not Zui. River never mind, she already thought of Amanda as a sister. It made her happy to see Zui have a close friend outside of the band. River rolled out of the bunk and jumped down, landing on her feet softly. She ran a hand through her blond hair and bit down on her lip as she pulled on plaid pj pants over her shorts and a black sweatshirt over her tank top. She peeked into Phin's bunk and noticed that he wasn't in his bunk either. She sighed, guessing he was still with Zui. Exhaustion finally took River over by three in the morning. She left her brother and sister there. As she entered the kitchenette/living room she saw her brother and sister on the couch. Zui was covered with a blanket while Phin stroked her head that was in her lap. She smiled, at least her sister was sleeping.

"How is she?" She asked in a soft voice, as she fetched a water from the fridge and unscrewed the cap, waiting for her brother's reply as she tied up her hair. " Finally asleep, she just passed out a half and hour ago. She keeps moving though..and talking. Jesus christ Riv, how didn't we know? How didn't we know that he was hurting her all those times she was crying. Every fucking time. We let it slip past us. That he was doing nothing that it was her. She wanted to die with him and it's sick. It sickens me how much she wanted to die, willing to give it up for him because he fucked her up. He fucked her up entirely. He told her he loved her and never kissed her only hurt her. She beilieved him Riv. She fucking believed him. God, I never knew. I wish I did I would of killed him. This Storm girl's gotta stop River. She can't...keep talking shit or else I'm afraid I might lose her." Her brother....never spoke so much about this. River bit her lip and nodded. "I know...I will. Sometime soon." She told him as she nodded. "It's making her feel worthless Riv....Our...sister is slowly breaking apart." He said as he ran a hand through Zui's hair. She knew she was going to be the one to take care of it. If Phin did....Storm would never last. She was the calmest out of the three. Hopefully, telling this girl what her sister was capable of and why she acted this way would calm everything down...She hoped. She only was doing this for her sister's safty.

Sighing, River headed towards the back of the bus where she kept her clothing and fished out a gray off the shoulder shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. She slipped off the clothes she was wearing and pulled on a pair of black thong underwear and a matching bra. She pulled the shirt and jeans over it as she ran a hand through her hair, taking it out of its pony tail and letting it hang against her back. River tied a scarf artfully around her neck and slipped on some ballet flats and she grabbed her red coat and slipped it over her torso, buttoning up the buttons. River took a step into their tiny bathroom and ran a brush through her fine hair. She always had thin hair as she tied it up again and placed her glasses on her face after she applied some eyeliner and blush. She always was a pale person. Paler than her brother or sister. She loved being different from then though. She sported piercing blue eyes as they had hazel brownish. Aren't all twins suppose to look the same? Nope, not really. River took one last look and moved out of the bathroom and through the bus. She stopped to kiss her brother and sister on the forehead. Zui was fighting in her sleep, punching the air while Phineas just sighed and held her arms down. " She's struggling" he muttered. River just shook her head and moved off of the bus. She headed towards her merch tent. Her shoes slapping softly against the pavement. A bunch of girls and boys made their ways up to her, asking to sign their stuff. River smiled and took pictures, taking the perment marker and signing photos and t-shirts. She felt great when she met her fans. After she signed everything and talked with a few she made her way to the merch tent. River sat down under the canopy and signed the pictures and t-shirts people were buying. Her own little meet and great. She played around with the merch kids and she did. River loved doing her job.

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[*STORM EBONY WILSON!]

Your words, bury me, of what I used to be
I can't erase all those things I've seen
You heart, smothers me, now it's time to breathe
I can't erase all my memories

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[/b][/color] she said quietly to the pole, knowing that peoples eyes were on her as she apologised to a pole. Well, she was pretending not to know what it was that she bumped into, besides the fact that she could feel a bump forming on her head the size of a golf ball. Storm turned around and sighed, keeping her hands out to find a chair across from the tent and sat down into it, keeping her head down as she went. So, she thought she’d finally talk to one of Zui’s siblings and try getting this whole thing sorted out. She still wanted to be able to talk to Trey, considering he was one of her good friends, and she wanted to be able to do this without a death wish. So, she’d wait until this little merch selling thing was over before she spoke. It was this girl’s band that owned this stand, so she'd keep her voice down until it was safe to talk.[/ul]

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Everyone considered Zui to be the more violent of the Phoenix triplets. Yes, triplets. They were all borned on the same snowy December. All within two minutes of each other. Zui was first, then River, then Phineas. All given odd ass names like River Kacey, Zui Nixon and Phineas Allistar. Yeah, fucking weird parents and she knew it. She didn't care though. River was a very...unique name as Zui and Phineas was and her parents were named Jane and Todd. How they cool names came out of them were beyond River. Still, it was fun. Running a hand through her blond hair she was still writing out autographs. She soon realized it became a little meet and greet. Something she never intended but oh well. She loved talking with fans and everything. "River where's Zui and Phineas" One asked, River signed and look down at the t-shirt. The one where there was a theatre and in the seats were robots while a girl and a boy were on stage kissing. She designed that one with Zui the two were always good artists. She was much more a of a photographer than drawer and painter like Zui. She ran a hand through her hair again as she thought of answering. "Um, they are...on the bus sleeping." She said as she looked up and smiled brightly. The fan took it as a good excuse and walked away. Questions like that came up like a lot. She answered them with the same excuse. She didn't want fans to know that her brother was currently comforting her hysterical sister. Hysterical was not something she'd use to describe Zui.

More like...cold. But she couldn't. Zui was hysterically. She felt her phone vibrate and reached to get it, flipping it open and reading the text. ' things are worse then they are. ' She could only pray they weren't that bad. Sending a quick text saying she'd be there in a bit. She closed her phone. She couldn't be on the bus. She had to think about this. Of course, River wondered what the fuck she should do. She had to get another lead singer dead...maybe this time she'd make it a drummer. Change things up a bit. 'No River...stick to singers' she thought as she sighed. Of course, she couldn't step out of line. She had to keep with her plans. So far,no one except Thack and Zui knew and she never intended her to know but she had to explain the blood somehow. Plus, she trusted her sister not to tell their brother. Zui was also a killer....in a sense.

River kept signing shirts till she saw something out of the corner of her eye. Moving her head slightly she saw a familiar blond that she needed to talk to. That was good, at least she could get this done and over with after this meet and greet. Hopefully, Phin had Zui straightened out and she would be able to talk to her sister without her being hysterically, hopefully. She knew that having Zui and Storm in the same room would end up in blood shed. She had seen her sister fight, maybe her sister didn't think but when River drove her car down a street she had seen a crowd around her sister and that bastard (he wasn't a bastard then) and fighting with knives against another gang. That's when River started questioning where the hell Zui was every night when she came back bleeding. Of course, Zui put up the story that she was getting stabbed instead of someone purposely cutting her.River shuddered as she ran a hand through her hair again. She couldn't help but feel horrible for her sister. She couldn't forgive herself that she hadn't known. She knew Phin couldn't either. Neither of them believed that they had let something so serious pass right under their noses. None of them ever thought that he would do that to her. Just proves things aren't what they seem...that and Zui was very good at covering shit up. River signed the last shirt that was thrown at her.

Signing it with a smile she handed it back to the fan and her phone vibrated again. God, what could it be now? 'She hears his voice....trying to...telling her she's worthless. She's a cutter....she thinks it will shut him up. Fuck Riv, I'm comtemplating bringing her to a hospital. River's phone almost slipped out of her hand. She grasped it at the last second. " don't do it. she'll be fine. I'll be there in a bit. Phin just...comfort her. She bit down on her lip. Now, she was scared for her fucking life...well more her sister's. Walking over to Storm, River ran a hand through her hair. "I think you and me have to have a talk. " She rather stated than demand. River never was the good at being...well...demanding like Zui. "I'm not hear to threatened I'm just hear...to tell you..what my sister could do and why she is like the way she is before you say anything. I think you should let me explain why she is like the way she is. Because I just found out last night." She told Storm as she rubbed her eyes. She did look exhausted and she was tired...as fuck. She had been up for so long comforting her sister. "Because I think you'll understand her actions a bit more." She said it in a tired voice. She just wanted this to be over.

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Your words, bury me, of what I used to be
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You heart, smothers me, now it's time to breathe
I can't erase all my memories

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[/b][/color] Storm murmured, clasping her hands together as they held her legs up on the chair. Pushing her sunglasses up onto her head, she kept her eyes down as River spoke, tapping her fingers absently against the back of her palm before bringing a hand up to touch the newly formed lump on her head. Ow, who knew running into a pole could hurt so much. Her head was starting to ache. Storm’s mouth twitched into a half smile, half smirk sort of thing before letting it drop to blank again. She didn’t really get how talking to River was supposed to stop this whole fued… but she guessed Zui would listen more to her sister and believe her rather than approaching her face to face.

Storm swallowed deeply, feeling her chest tighten as if the word vomit was going to arise, but sure enough, she was able to hold it back and instead sighed. ”good… cause I don’t really think I want to be beaten to a pulp again. I never want to see my brother that worried again…”[/color] She whispered before she chewed on her lip; in all her years of being with Zane, he hadn’t ever been this worried. Why? Well it was one of the first times she’d come home with cuts and bruises all over her face for starters, another was that since it started, she’d kept to herself and lied to him, telling him she’d just tripped from a misread step or something. Storm let go of her knees, hitching them up so they wouldn’t slip down onto the ground before letting her hand fall down to the spot beside her, ”it might take awhile, so you may as well sit…”[/color] Storm offered calmly, lifting her eyes only a tiny bit. She blinked slowly and waited till the girl either took her offer or didn’t before she continued, ”If you explain things… I’ll try and explain myself more, and try to get rid of the misunderstandings that have taken place. But right now, my heads hurting cause I ran straight into a pole,”[/color] Storm pouted her lips gently and rubbed her forehead again, mouthing a small ‘ow’ as she did so.

”I would apologise face to face for the things that have happened… but yeah, like I said, she’s most likely think I’m lying and hurt me again,”[/color] Storm commented quietly, sucking in a long, deep breath before exhaling it slowly. She had to keep herself awake for this, or else she’d easily doze off and just fall asleep where she was sitting.[/ul]

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Okay, so this might be easier than she though. River nodded and sat down in a chair, crossing one leg over another. You would think the girl grew up with royality instead of gang leaders. Honestly, she never thought that she would be involved in a gang even though she wasn't really. But after her parents....died...or killed themselves whatever way she looked at it. (because Zui saw them die...she just told them they killed themselves to protect them) She never knew how much death her sister saw till now really, watching her boss writher away to cancer. That man may have killed people but he did take care of the Phoenix's when their parents died. She remembered him telling them that Zui was the best he had...He never specified best at what but River knew what he meant though. She could see it in Zui's face when she came home and hung up her coat and hid the gun in her closet. It was hard to believe that Zui owned a gun let alone three back then. She always told River which ones were used for what.

Small one was used for short range...the shotgun was used for drive bys and the AK 47 was used for gun wars. Great, her sister could a full blown gun person and she wouldn't even know.It was a good thing that Zui hung up the guns before she started the band. River knew after James...that asshole died. She stopped everything and after her boss died she stopped organizing it. One of the most notorious gangs in Vegas died along when Zui joined TOR. That was a good thing though, obviously the gang life was killing her sister....more than she let on. She knew not being on the streets was killing too...She wanted to be there and playing guitar. 'Mayber theres a traveling gang' she thought, her sister best get her frusterations by that...then other ways. "I think...that's probably the best."

Worried? She thought that coming back beat up was bad. Try watching you own sister walk through your door crying and bleeding. Then on Christmas watching her sit in a bed unconscious, bleeding everywhere for two months. The constant stitches...that she needed because well, Zui could never stop moving energizer bunny was her middle name. She ripped them open too much when she moved. 'Now is not the time to lose your mind Riv over some stupid sentence.' Mentally calming herself down, River's hands fell into her lap. "Maybe, what I'm about to say..will help you understand her. Zui...has...always been like...that..maybe not as bad..But she was like that. They never let her into public schools. She was homeschooled until she was in ninth grade and they let her into her first week of school. " River stopped to snort. " Came home with expulsion the next day Zui..started fights every where she goes." River stopped for a moment. "By the time she was fourteen I had no idea...but she had joined a gang in Vegas. I'm not kidding. She was working for some drug lord and had a close well...a best friend named James...the two...were inseperable. " The words felt strange coming out of her mouth, because...they didn't mean what they used to. "I found out driving down the street and driving pass a fight...kinda surprise to see my sister there handling a knife against some beefy six foot man. Kinda....scared me how fast she took him down with James with her. When I confronted her she showed me everything and told me everything...Then she told Phin who was not happy with this. Our..parents were killed..and she saw the whole thing. She told us, for our protection that they killed themselves. Every night she'd come home from James and have...cuts all over her. We'd just guess she was fighting. By Christmas..something horrible happened. They were in a car...and another gang smashed their car into them..Her and James. James was killed and she was cut up by long glass." River lifted her hand apart to show how big the glass was. five inches at the best. "They dragged her out of the car when they noticed she was still alive...his..head was severed off in the crash. They tried to kill her till the cops showed up. Was in the hospital for two months before they realeased her. The boss, this man who led the gang took care of us. Paid for everything. He withered away from cancer in front of her. That...was the hardest for her..." River had to stop to clear her throat and rub her eyes.

"Last...night..we found out something that neither I or my brother knew till she came in drunk and sobbing. My sister never cries...it was scary. Took her three hours to admit that James used his knives on her...as a test to see if they were sharp enough. He'd cut her up and sew her back up. Telling her she was only good for cutting, worthless. That he loved her but he was only doing this so he could protect her if people tried to hurt her. My..sister..believes anything he shoved at her. The...car crash was...planned. She was planning to kill him but he stabbed her before she could get a shot in. Then the back up plan happened and they crashed. She planned to be dead with him...She ordered the opposing gang to kill her if she wasn't dead already....We all thought it was just the other gang trying to kill her...well they were..just not under the circumstances that we thought. So, we thought she was fine. Till last night. When she told Phin she heard his voice in the back of his head and the little stupid little girl remarks and what you say...they all feel like he's saying it. She starts to cut...to make 'him' happy because she never had a way of controlling it, nor did she tell anyone that she had been through all of it... We never understood how much death she saw and how much she lost till now. The band, Amanda my brother and myself are all she has and the only people that know what happened and I know she's going to keep it that way.This is information..not to be shared with anyone. If it took her five years to get out of her...then I don't want anyone knowing what has happened. Understand?" Now River had turned deadly, the deadly person she was as she hit the last word. No one could know about Zui...and her...past. "Maybe this has helped you understand my sister" River looked down at the vibrating phone and sighed and closed it again.

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[*STORM EBONY WILSON!]

Your words, bury me, of what I used to be
I can't erase all those things I've seen
You heart, smothers me, now it's time to breathe
I can't erase all my memories

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[/b][/color] Storm whispered more to herself than to the girl beside her.

Storm listened intently as River started with her tale, resting her chin onto her hands as she blankly stared towards the ground. River was really trusting Storm with all of this information? What the fuck was going on here? Was she on punk’d or something… cause the last thing she knew was that she was the stupid little whore bag who’d tried to steal Trey away from Zui. Storm swallowed deeply when River mentioned that Zui had joined a gang and didn’t know until she saw her wielding a knife against some beefy six foot guy. The side of her head started to ache from the thought of being hit by her, bringing a hand up and gripping her hair between her fingers gently as she screwed up her nose. When she mentioned that their parents were killed, she pressed her mouth against her knee to stop herself from speaking and letting the word vomit escape again. Keep quiet until she stops talking, Storm, you have to keep yourself listening to this and not tune out into your thoughts. Oh man, that stupid little voice in the back of her head just needed to shut up sometimes! It seemed to get louder and louder as the days went by; sometimes she even thought she was going schitz.

The images that came to her head as River spoke about how her sisters’ friend, James, had used his knives on her. It reminded her of one of those dreams she’d had; her dads’ client coming back and finding her, tying her down to a cold steel table before drawing his blade across her arms, claiming that she’d be beautiful once he was finished. The pain that had seized through her body was excruciating to the point where when she woke up, she had blood dripping down her arm from where she’d scratched herself in an attempt to get him off. Storm let her eyes drift over to where River was sitting, blinking slowly as she watched her talk. She made sure to keep her eyes gazing off behind her at something instead of keeping them on her, she’d already blown her cover with Trey, but at least he’d promised not to tell anyone. Storm could feel the images rising into her head, the screams from her mother and her father as they told her to run, then the image of the knife slicing into her skin. Her chest tightened as she closed her eyes, biting down onto her lip hard enough that it was aching. Maybe she should’ve told her to lay low on the details that when she says something to Zui, she self mutilates thinking it’s that boy in her head. Way to guilt trip the girl, much?

The goosebumps rose on her arms as she brushed her fingers down them, taking in a slow, calming breath as she tried to wash the images from her mind. ”You could’ve laid low on the details… cause fuck, I’m not going to be able to sleep tonight,” she squeaked, opening her brown eyes as she nodded weakly, seeming lost for words. ”If you didn’t want anyone to know… why would you tell me that much?” Storm asked quietly, biting down on her lip as she breathed through her nose. ”But I won’t… I’ll suffer the images you’ve put in my head all on my own. And thanks for guilt tripping me with the whole cutting thing, I really needed it,” the sarcasm was dripping from her words as she gave a weak smile. ”It will take awhile to sink in, for it is only early in the morning. But for now, as you’ve told me that, I’ll explain my situation,” more like explain her life. That sounded more suitable. The girl took in a slow breath, leaning her back straight against the bench as she started her tale. ”There were 3 people in my family, mum, dad and I. My mother was lucky to even have me, considering she couldn’t have kids. So, apparently I was one of those miracle child, even though the Christian people believe I’m a sin because I wasn’t conceived naturally,” Storm bit her lip before continuing, ”I had just turned 11 when I stumbled upon my dads workshop in the basement. It was riddled with marijuana plants, pill machines and rows and rows of multi coloured bottles with all different labels and stamps. There were also supply closest filled with the usual ingredients. Further into it, I found racks of weapons. Turns out daddy wasn’t all he said to be, he was a drug dealer and a weapon specialist. He threatened to lock me away forever if I told my mum, so I didn’t.”

Storm remained quiet for a moment, remembering the day the whole world went still. ”A month later, mum found out the hard way. Our house was broken into by some of dads clients. I managed to escape and hid in their bedroom closet, whereas they were caught and tied up to chairs in their room. I still remember their screams as they tried to tell me to run as I watched in complete horror as my mother and fathers heads were blown clean off their body and splattered against the wall,” the sound of the gunshot in her head caused her to jump, digging her nails deeply into her legs as she closed her eyes. ”I was taken to some shit as fuck rehab for a year before being thrown into adoption. None of my relatives wanted me, so I moved from foster home to foster home for 3 years. The longest I spent with one family during those years was 3 months, and then I had one of my nervous breakdowns and they got rid of me,” Storm loosened her grip on her legs and shifted her arms up, folding them across her knees lightly and resting her chin atop them. ”Then I was adopted by the Tyson family, who had 3 sons, one being Zane. Surprisingly enough, he was the one who brought me back to reality and helped me renew my life. I owe him a lot for that… except I really, really wished I’d never developed a feeling for him which was more than a family bond,” Storm took in a slow breath before looking towards River again.

”Whenever it comes to the month before my family’s death, I tend to become unaware of my actions and I don’t think before I speak. The whole thing with Trey… we’ve never liked each other more than friends. We were both smashed when we slept together, but it hasn’t happened again since then, we’ve made sure of that. I never intended to steal him or anything, because you know how people are when they’re drunk, they’ll most likely sleep with the closest person to them. It was shameless…” Storm admitted quietly, bringing her index finger up to her mouth as she bit it gently. ”I want to stay friends with Trey even if Zui and him are dating… and I’d like to be able to talk to him without being watched like a hawk. I already have an unrequited love to deal with… and I’m struggling with that enough knowing he’s completely oblivious to it and sleeping with other girls.” Storm took in a deep breath, not realising she hadn’t been breathing properly through her whole speech. ”And there you have it…” Storm whispered, rubbing at her eyes lightly as she yawned.[/ul]

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Maybe River shouldn't of told her everything. The whole cutting her up part. Maybe this girl wasn't well, wouldn't be able to handle such a startling story of Zui's past. She listened as the girl spoke. When the sarcasm and the guilt trip words flew out of the girl's mouth. River tensed up. That was never meant as a guilt trip. Stupid bitch. River could of have her killed. Her life was in River's hands because she knew how to cover up her tracks like she had. But River being a the good girl didn't say a word. She just simply stared. Now, River wasn't there when they killed her parents. She knew that Zui had seen everything when they held her back. She knew that her parents were stabbed brutally before someone had finally finished the job by slitting their throats. Gangs never played that much with guns in Vegas, they used knives on their victims more painful, more.....traumatizing. She was feeling rather good right now, River...could do anything.

"Thought I came to tell you...that my sister is way more capable of things...that she shouldn't be. You'd think she cared if she killed you? Nope, not really. Her connections to gangs have never been severed when she left the job as hit man. Believe me now...I know that my sister...is...well, was a killer. She never denied it when Phin asked her. We feel like we don't even know her anymore. She's distant from my brother and I. You don't help either, fueling her insane anger even though Amanda is pretty much adding wood to the fire. But, Phin wanted me to settle this till Zui lost total control and went after you. She maybe afraid of knives and out of guns but that doesn't mean she can't find one. She still has ties and many...leaders..would of wanted her by now if she wasn't in TOR. Keeping her in the band is all we have...and she....wanted to quit a few days ago. Ready to actually, performing her song then leaving. Only when I told Trey that she liked him and thank you very much for fucking something like that up. Honestly, that is why Zui was never that much of a drunk around people. Unlike you, she's never kissed someone yet. So, really. Thanks for almost ruining those chances. Phin and I have been trying for years to get her over this fucking James thing and we just found out now what a sick bastard he was and it's not like she's very open about her feelings as it is. When you slept with him...It was fucking unbearable to be around her because she was pissed off. Locking herself in a hotel room to get drunk and break tvs. Honestly, if you think you're story is a guilt trip believe me it isn't. I know what guilt trips are...I know...what they are like. Your parents dying? Fine I feel you on that, because mine were killed too even though I wasn't there to see it. Still, I had nightmares, my brother did drugs and my sister continued to be friends with a sadistic bastard who cut her up and told her she was broken everyday. At least you fucking love someone, you should just go right out and say it because it's stupid to keep shit in this long. Zui did and look what happened, the next day I get the news that my own brother wants her committed because she has his voice telling her that she's nothing, everything she has she loses. Everyone she has loses and as much as Trey tells her he doesn't like you. That voice is still telling her how much better you are because you don't have terrible nightmares that wake up the whole bus because she flails around, hurting herself. Because she doesn't purposely cut herself because she wants that fucking voice to be quiet. Because, she thinks that you're better than her because you fucked him while she never even fucked someone let alone kiss them. Honestly, I don't give a shit that you don't think before you speak because we all do it. Listen to me now, she doesn't care if your friends she just cares that the voice would shut up and stop calling her broken. She doesn't want to be broken and she thinks with you being there she is...compared to you she thinks she's a absolute crazed mess. That he'll leave you once he sees the scars all over her body that she never wanted there. For Christ sakes she calls herself Sally from Nightmare before Christmas. I've been trying to tear her away from this mentality. But it never works and if you even think of telling our gossip girl. I wouldn't because I know her rather personally. That is why I don't give into to guilt trips or any sob stories, it's because I watched someone live through one and never knew. " River's voice was sharp. She didn't feel like herself. She never felt so aggravated. River stood up and sighed. "I'm sorry, but I'm under some stress right now.....We aren't to sure if Zui should be in the hospital or not till this is taken care of. " She pulled the phone out and looked at the text. 'she's doing better.' relieved that the text carried good things rather than bad..

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[*STORM EBONY WILSON!]

Your words, bury me, of what I used to be
I can't erase all those things I've seen
You heart, smothers me, now it's time to breathe
I can't erase all my memories

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[/i] and that was only time I’ve slept with someone since I’ve been on this tour.”[/b][/color] Storm took in a long breath before continuing, ”I never meant my fucking story to be a guilt trip. God, I was merely keeping my end of the bargain. It would’ve been stupid to just only have you tell me about Zui’s and not my own. Cause if we wanted to, right now we could use both of those to our advantages, but I’m not like that.”[/color] Storm’s teeth ground, ”And I can’t tell him because he’s my brother, and everyone around me thinks we’re actually blood related when we’re not. She doesn’t know that I don’t have those nightmares, so she can’t exactly say anything there. They may not be as bad as hers, but I do have them about my parents dying. I also have nervous breakdowns when I get too stressed, which happen daily even if its something little that happens. I’m not the cause of that goddamn voice in her head, okay?! That’s not me, sure I may say things that accidentally set it off, but that’s not all me. I can’t do anything to stop that voice, I’ve been staying away from her but if it gets triggered by just seeing me, then what do you want me to do? Put a paper bag over my head? Quit the band and head on back to Australia? I’m not going to do any of that, so she has to get used to seeing me walking around because we’re gonna be here for a long time.”[/color] Storm said, her nails now digging into the flesh of her arms.

Her head turned slowly as she stared at the ground towards where River was, ”I would never, tell gossip girl. I don’t believe in spreading gossip since there is shit being thrown around about me on there. I hate gossipers, that’s why I’ve never been one.”[/color] Storm hissed, biting down on her lip before giving an annoyed sigh, looking away from her as River stood up and announced she was under stress. ”I never would’ve guessed… but you didn’t have to bark at me when my words weren’t supposed to be taken the wrong way.”[/color] Storm whispered before pulled her nails out of her forearms and frowned, ”I’ll keep away from her, but I can’t guarantee she’ll stop seeing me around because we are here together after all.”[/color] Storm informed her, brushing her hair behind her ears before she sighed. ”I wasn’t here to be a nuisance to people, I never even intended on actually hurting someone. If there was a way to actually apologise to her to try and set things straight without her getting mad at me again, I’d do it.”[/color] She would do it just because she too wanted things to be over and done with already. Even if it meant losing one of her best friends and only being able to talk to him over AIM.[/ul]

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